how to be a friend

I know how to be a pastor.

I know (and am learning) how to be a husband.

I am learning how to be a father.

A son.

But, how do I be a friend. I am surrounded by friends, and yet am lonely and without friends.

I think it is me. I am learning how to keep people at a distance. I don't make the time to invest in people. I am sad. I am alone.

I have everything, but nothing.

Have I incurred this on myself?

I don't run with a group of guys. I don't do manly things.

Jesus, help me.